Tag: grief
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Beauty in the Hellscape
Two things happened today. One: While we were driving, my friend spotted a tiny, raggedy pup frantically running down the sidewalk of a busy street and heading for the road. My friend was the driver, so I leaped out of our car and chased the little dog down, frantically waving down speeding traffic, with the…
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Life Is Like a Random Red Sock in a Tree
I am having a sad and disappointing few days. We’ve had a family loss and lost the house we wanted to a higher bidder, I’ve had some work stresses, frustrations, and minor disappointments, and my friends all keep having huge losses–and I finally just had a large pity party that I am probably way overdue for.…
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Beautiful Endings
Everything you need to know about child development, you can learn from soccer. I know that sounds weird. But it’s true. Selah has been on a soccer team since she was four. When she was four, I hated soccer, because she basically cried and fell down all the time, along with the rest of the…
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In Defense of Mother’s Day
This morning, I was thinking about Mother’s Day. This is unsurprising, because today is Mother’s Day. This year I think I have encountered more counter-culture reactions to Mother’s Day than I have in past years. It seems like a few crept in each year, but this year I encountered more of them than usual. I…
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It’s Broken
Every now and then I am struck by stupid grief. This morning, I went out into my sunny garden to stretch a bit. I found a plastic container out there, one that my ex had written “baby oatmeal” on. And it broke my heart. It’s been years since this container held baby oatmeal but I…
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Gratitude for Grief
Honestly, this is going to be a weird Thanksgiving post. I’m not going to show you pictures of my turkey. I’m not going to tell you I’m grateful for my friends and family and leave it at that. This is my first Thanksgiving on my own. Without a spouse, and without kids. I opted for…
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Joy is Now
Tomorrow is Asher’s birthday. He’ll be four. I had a moment the other day when I remembered his first birthday. On July 13, 2010, I woke up at the exact time he had been born, one year prior. I woke up so angry and sad. And I wrote about it. I used to blog on…